I know I’ve been advising soulsong that it doesn’t matter what you write as you long get the gist of story down there that you can go back to look at, mull over and tweak once you’ve finished it, and I know that I’m doing exactly the opposite by spending time rewriting chapters one and two. But I have to! I put this novel down for the best part of a year and I’ve picked it up again now because I still really like and believe in the story (probably even more so), but the thing is some crucial changes have happened that I have to get right in the first couple of chapters which I’m going to have to get right else I won’t be able to write the rest (in long go…).

So anyway, been swimming this evening – another 40 lenghths in a shade over that many minutes and it was nice and quiet (school holidays??) which is good because when I’m going well and it’s quiet I have time to think. And I’ve worked out a few things. Ben needs to go through the whole losing his sister a hell of a lot more. It’s a life changing event losing (or supposing you’ve lost) a blood relative. I know I haven’t been through that myself and I won’t pretend that I have, but I know how I felt that night (incidentally the same night that I stopped/unable to write any more to Blood & Fire) when I heard my parents house had burnt to the ground. Thinking you’ve lost a sister must be like that and some. I need to put some of those feelings into my novel. So Ben is going to have completely sleepness nights, he’s going to imagining all kinds of alternative scenarios when this didn’t happen, he’s going to replay past conversations with his sister. He’s going drive out to Gulfoss and stand by the side of the waterfall with the deafening thunder and power of the water plunging through his mind. He’s going to be unable to focus on anything other than what’s happening. And it’s got to happen for several days.

And now, I’ve got to write it…